Confessions of an Adult Middle Child in Isolation
Confessions of an Adult Middle Child in Isolation
It is okay to be self-sufficient and still want to feel loved by another human.
My family does not come to visit me. I am expected to visit them. My family does not call me. I am expected to call them. They assume I am doing fine, because I have always been “fine”.
During the current pandemic, it is easy to feel lonely when one is living alone. I do not have other people to share the days with nor someone to hold on the hard days. Yet, for the first time in my life I feel excited to spend time with myself.
As the amount of days at home increase, so does my self-trust. I am having vivid dreams and flashbacks that teach me more and more about who I am as an individual. My curiosity has been ignited!
Some of the most important things in my life are my relationships. As a child, I quickly learned to be a helper and I embrace that role in my family. I am now realizing how much time and thought I put into the relationships in my life. Currently, it feels great to take care of myself. I visit the family in myself; I call upon the family in myself.
I love this! I am a middle child too... and yes, there was and is many times I feel like I am not checked on because I have always been “fine”. I love being self-sufficient though and I am teaching my girls to be strong and independent girls too.
ReplyDeleteI’m not a middle child but I can relate! I’m the youngest of my siblings and they all had kids young, so stepping up and becoming the “helper” and being “fine” all the time has played a big role in my life at a young age. But I wouldn’t change it for the world! Even though I live alone now and have been self sufficient the majority of my adult life, I know I’ll always have family to fall back on because of the roles we’ve established in each other’s lives. I’m grateful you shared you experience; it sparked memories that I had tucked away long ago. ��
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